My Dog Is My Hero!

Surprise! After what seemed like forever, I finally convinced my husband to get us a dog! We got ourselves a handsome and dashing golden retriever puppy, Odin, just a couple of months ago, and have been loving every bit of our time together since then. In the short amount of time that we've had Odin, he has already saved me from my anxiety just by keeping me company and having me focus on things other than my fears when I'm alone and my husband is away on missions. He has already become so dear to me and Odin and I have forged an amazing bond already, so much so that even my husband believes that Odin truly is my dog, since he and I are pretty much inseparable and the fact that he listens to me over him. xD Aside from my husband, Odin's the only real friend I have, but he's starting to change that, too, it seems.

 Lately when I take him out for walks, we have been getting approached by many people, some of which we now encounter regularly. At first, it all started out as small talk about Odin and their own dogs, and then escalated into talking about ourselves and getting to know each other better. For a shy girl like me, this is almost like a miracle. I've always had trouble talking to other people and tended to keep to myself, and now I find myself opening up more and more, all thanks to Odin. To think that he could bring so many positive changes into my life in such a short window of time is just incredible to me and it blows me away. What is it about dogs and their magical powers that can change someone for the better?

He blinked!

Merry Christmas!

Hope everyone around the world has a wonderful, beautiful, spectacular Christmas! Whether you celebrate it or not, spend time with all of your family and friends and everyone that you love. <3 Eat, drink, and be merry! ^_^ Happy Holidays!


-Special  Message to the Soldiers Who Cannot Spend Time With Their Families This Year-

Thank you so much for all that you've done for us and our country. Your sacrifice to keep our country's people safe is brave and selfless, and I and everyone is very grateful for that. :) What you're all doing is the greatest gift that anyone can ask for. Thank you... ^_^

So Pretty~!

About a week or so ago, my husband and I decided that we would check out the BX (it's sort of like a tiny mall) on post. We came across this one store that was selling a ton of Japanese toys and antiques, and we were automatically drawn to it. xD While we were in there, I spotted these adorable Hello Kitty figurines, and I couldn't stop eyeing them up. They all were dressed in different kimonos and  carrying different items such as fans and toys... They were all so cute! x3 I was really hesitant about leaving that store because I wanted them sooo badly~! 

Until today, I haven't really thought about them since then. The only reason why my thoughts have returned back to the dolls was because today after work, my husband came home, and told me to close my eyes because he had a surprise for me. He told me to hold out my hands and placed a box in them. I ran my hands over the surface trying to figure out what it could possibly be. I eventually gave up trying to guess (I kept thinking it was food-related).  I opened my eyes, and to my surprise, I saw a picture of one of the figurines that I had been admiring! I couldn't wait to get it out of the box!

I still can't stop staring at it as it sits so beautifully on top of our table! My husband sure does know me well. ^_^ I didn't think that he would even remember how much I had wanted it... I kind of forgot, myself, so there was no way I would have expected him to! I feel like such a lucky girl to have someone who thinks so much of me and who just wants to spoil me all the time. xD  Now, I'm going to have to think of way to return the favor.... ^.^

Happy Anniversary~!

Today marks the day of mine and my husband's one year anniversary! ^.^ I can't believe it's been exactly a year now since we've gotten married. :3 It seems to have went by so fast! Oddly enough, he and I don't really want to do anything today to celebrate. We both actually almost forgot that our anniversary was today. If it weren't for people bombarding us with "Happy Anniversary!" messages, we probably would have never thought of it. It's not that we don't want to celebrate it, it's just that it's kind of an inconvenient time for us at the moment. Everything has just been so busy for us, especially with the seemingly never ending stream of people that keep coming to visit us (yes, we're still getting visitors left and right, almost to the point where it seems like we don't get much time to ourselves to just sit back and relax). Also, it kind of doesn't help now that we've sold our car, so we can't just go off somewhere at our own convenience anymore. :P

It doesn't really bother me though, staying at home and resting. It may not be the most exciting way to spend our anniversary, but it's alright. It kind of makes me feel bad though when people get all shocked over us not doing anything and fuss over it. Someone even said that the honeymoon phase must be over for us, which doesn't help make me feel better at all. It actually makes me more paranoid than anything else... I dread the idea of the spark of our romance fizzling out. Sounds so.... miserable, boring, and blah. I know people say it's normal for that to happen over the years of being married, but really, I don't think I can accept or be satisfied with such mediocrity. Honestly, I do everything in my power to avoid that sort of thing, so hearing that really just irks me and puts such a bad taste in my mouth. It completely sours my mood. Ugh... Curse my semi-easily influenced mind...making me stress over what other people say. It would be wise for me to just follow the caterpillar's advice:

Easier said than done, but I should try harder to not let what other's say get to my head so much. Getting upset over things like this does more harm than good, anyways, especially since people will always say what they want without knowing what it is that they're even talking about. I need to just brush it off and move on! *nods* I won't let anyone else ruin the rest of my day, that's for certain!

What Do I Do....?

I've been stressing out for hours now all because of a dream I had a few nights before, and now here I am typing out a blog post at 2 am, unable to sleep. It seems to have been a prophetic dream... You know, one of those dreams that pretty much land up actually occurring in reality. Normally, I don't make such a big deal over these, as the ones I usually get tend to be trivial and don't have any positive or negative effects on my life, but this time, it's different. This time, my marriage could be at risk.

In my dream, my husband was playing WoW (which really isn't so out of the ordinary to begin with, since he plays often) and he was talking to someone on there. I could see the username, and in my dream, I had asked who that was, and he had told me that it was someone he had met the day before while playing. He said that he didn't plan on getting to know this person or asking them personal questions about themselves and that he just likes having friends in the games he plays. Sure enough, today (well, I guess technically it would be yesterday now...) I saw that same exact username on his screen while he was playing WoW, and when I asked him about it, he said the exact same thing that he said in the dream. Now of course, this alone isn't even that big of a deal, but I promise that it gets worse.

Fast forward a few days (or weeks, or even months maybe...?) in the dream, and all my husband wants to do is play WoW all the time and talk to this person. He lands up forming a bond with them, and then finding out that this person is a girl. He starts talking about how awesome he thinks she is, and flirting with her online all the time, and eventually he tells me that he thinks he has feelings for her. The very thought of this happening is devastating to me, and I have no idea what to do. On one hand, I can bring this up to him and try to prevent it (which I want to do), but on the other... I wonder if this is going to really land up happening, if I should just let it be. If this is what's going to happen, would it be wrong if I try to fight against it for my own happiness and possibly preventing my husband from being with someone who could make him even happier than I could ever dream of making him as a result? Would it be selfish of me to do anything but stand idly by and watch everything as it unfolds? Do I just leave? Or do I just try to stay calm and hope that the rest of my dream doesn't come true?

I'm nervous about what may happen if I bring this up to my husband... I want to trust him and I want to believe that our relationship is strong enough to overcome anything, but this is just too much of a coincidence so far. Then again, it could very well be just that... mere coincidences. Ugh... A few days ago, I wouldn't have even given that dream a second thought, and now it's driving me insane! I don't know what to do.... I feel so conflicted and I can't get it out of my head. *sigh* Maybe I should just gather up all of my courage and talk to him about this, and then see what he does... I'm crossing my fingers and hoping everything will turn out alright. Wish me luck!

Such a Sweetie!

This whole week, my husband has been in Illinois to do some training for his new job in the army! He's been doing all of this just so we can both go to Japan together. ^_^ Today has been his last day with the training and he passed his tests with flying colors! I'm so proud of him~! x3 I'm also soooo glad that he's returning home to me tomorrow! I miss him, and I know he misses me very much, too. He even sent me a cute little picture/message that he drew himself! (shown up above) I really adore it. <3 It just goes to show you that even the little things can be really precious and can make you smile all day!  So don't take even the simplest things for granted!!!

Mairunovich

Today, I've come across this manga called Mairunovich online! There's only eight chapters of it out so far, but it's good and I'm hooked on it! It's about a sixteen year old girl named Mairu. Her peers constantly make fun of her because she has a cute name and her appearance doesn't match it. The guys in her school either laugh at her, are repulsed by her, or just ignore her completely. Everyone at her school even call her "Poisonous Mushroom". Eventually, she decides that she wants to change and become pretty. With the help of her two friends, she achieves her goal! ^_^


The story isn't very original, and it in some way it reminds me a bit of Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge (AKA The Wallflower), but I still love stories like this. I find that I could really relate to characters like Mairu. Back in middle school, guys were the exact same way toward me, and even used to dare each other to hit on me and then laugh about it. They also used to throw markers, erasers, and balls of paper at me during class and made fun of whatever I said. I was called ugly and a freak. I wanted to become pretty, too. I know there are things that are much more important than beauty, but still... I was tired of being bullied and made fun of all the time because of the way I looked, and I wanted it to stop. Because of that, I could really feel for Mairu and landed up cheering for her the entire time I was reading! xD

If you're interested in checking it out,  you can read it here! It's actually a really funny read, and very cute, too. I've already recommended it to a couple of my friends, and they seem to really like it a lot, too! :3 I hope that this manga gets translated and published out here, eventually. I'd buy it in a heartbeat! Lols!

He's Coming Home~!

My hubby is going to be back home in just a few hours~! ^_^ I've been spending most of the day cleaning the house, getting dolled up, and cooking. @_@ It's such tiring work! I'm still not done, too. Right now I'm working on baking a cake to celebrate and to welcome him back home. :3 I want to make sure that he's really happy to be back and that tonight will go perfectly. ^.^

Hehe~! In a way, it almost feels like he and I are dating again right now. I remember how I would do everything I could to look my best, make sure I had everything ready, and waiting at home anxiously for him to come and pick me up. I seem to be doing the exact same thing at this moment. xD It's kind of exciting, to be honest. :) It's been awhile since I've been this eager just to see him... I've missed him so much.... I've decided that as soon as he steps through the door, I'm going to slather him in kisses! Lols!

Anyways, I really should get back to the preparations now.  I can go on and on about how elated I am over the fact that he'll be here shortly and how much I love and miss him, but I'll spare you readers the torture. :P Bye bye~!

<3

Can't Sleep...

It's my second night by myself since my husband had gone to Florida. I really dislike being here alone when night comes around... At least during the days, I can go out and distract myself, but at night, I'm confined to the house (ladies shouldn't be out by themselves at night; it's not safe!) and I start to realize just how lonely I feel. The house just seems so empty with no one else around... I can't help but be a bit sad when I think about that.

Well, at least I am able to talk to my husband daily, so that makes things a bit better. So far we talk once in the morning, then in the afternoon, and then right before he goes to bed. Still, it's not quite the same as him being here. 

I know, I know... I'm whining too much. :P I guess when it comes to the people I love and care about most, I can get really clingy. I can't help it! Dx I have to say though, even though he's not right next to me, I'm happy that he's having so much fun with his family and friends. ^_^ He doesn't get to see them very often, being in the army and currently residing on the opposite side of the country from them. They only get to see him about twice a year! I only have to be without him for 10 more days. Compared to how long they all have to wait just to see him, that's really nothing. It makes me feel a little bad when I think about that... Still, I'm really looking forward to him coming back! xD I guess the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder" is really true! Since he's not around, it just makes me want him even more! Interesting how that works... :P 

Anyways, I should really try to get some sleep. It would be bad if me staying up late persists and I look like a total wreck as soon as he walks through the door. Lols! Good night, everyone! Have pleasant dreams. :)

Venting...

It's been a couple of days since my husband's friends have arrived here at our home, and while I do not mind their company in the least, I notice something about my husband every time they're around; his personality changes. I suppose it's like this for many people, but a lot of the time it seems he becomes slightly annoyed with me and a little more snappy. Sometimes I feel like I don't even exist, but I guess that's to be expected since he really doesn't see his friends all that often, but I still can't help but feel a little bothered by this. What really took the cake was that earlier, I just asked for a hug, and while he did give me what I wanted, he said afterward that he didn't want to show too much affection around company. -_- I didn't think a hug was all that much to ask for or was so inappropriate...

The odd thing is that this behavior comes and goes randomly throughout the day. One moment he is kind of cold toward me, the next he's all charming, but by then I'm already upset and can't bring myself to be all cute and loving. Sadly, I just can't act the way he expects me to whenever it's most convenient for him. I like how he is much better when it's just the two of us, when he's pretty much always sweet to me and tells me things like how much he misses me after a long day of work and that seeing me makes him feel so much happier. Of course, I would never forbid his friends from coming over and staying even though I feel this way. Like I said before in a previous post, I like that they care enough about him to come and visit, especially when some of them come over from different countries just to spend time with him. That kind of friendship is really hard to come by, and I would never want to ruin that. The only thing I can do is just stick it out and try not to lose my temper. It's not like this will last forever.

Honestly, I already feel better just being able to get this all off my chest. It feels good to be able to say exactly what's on my mind, especially during the times when I can't really talk it out with anyone. *Sigh* I must seem so pathetic... haha. Oh well. :P I'm off to go do my own thing now and kill some time! Sims 2, here I come!