Oooh Boy....

I can't believe I haven't been posting lately.... 0_0 It's not that I've forgotten to, it's just that in the past month, things have been extremely busy, and not in a fun way. Our furniture came in a few weeks ago, so we had to do lots of unpacking, reorganizing, and have been trying to piece back our life and home together little by little. It's looking so much better now though, but the work was so exhausting! x_x Still, we aren't quite finished yet. There's still some little things that need to be taken care of (mainly just buying a few things that we need to replace our old furniture that we weren't able to take with us, restocking our cabinets, figuring out where to place our gaming systems, etc.), and one big thing.... we still have to find a way to bring our cats here.... It's taking much longer than anticipated. We know that they're okay where they are staying at the moment, but we miss them like crazy! I miss Blair following me around everywhere and sitting in my lap for hours on  end, and I miss Sundae's constant meowing (I never thought I would say that). In the little time we have had them, they've become such a big part of our lives and we have come to  love them very dearly. We can't wait until they're back in our arms again!

Thinking about our cats can't help but make me think of our guinea pigs and rabbits, too... It makes me feel awful that we had to surrender them... We would have had to give them up anyways when they got here, though, since we're only allowed to have two pets living on base. :( It hurts thinking about them, but I can only hope that they have found loving homes with people who can take care of them properly, especially the rabbits. They can't be kept in a cage all day and need their running space, can't be put under stress, need their areas cleaned at least once every two days, need to be petted and loved often so they don't shed and so they warm up to you, and need lots and lots of timothy hay to help their digestive system. Taking care of them is a lot of work, and I wonder just how many people have the time and dedication to do that on a regular basis. Some people eventually start to neglect their pet rabbits after the initial excitement of having them wears away too, or so I've heard. I don't want that to land up happening to them.... I can't help but be worried about them so much. My husband says to remain positive, but sometimes that's a bit difficult, especially when we don't know where they may be now. I wonder if I will ever stop worrying about them...

I'm Just Going To Rant!

I'm just going to say it.... I'm sick, sick, sick, sick, SICK of seeing women of any sort barely clothed everywhere I look. -_- Whether it's on tv, online, a magazine, a movie, or even a freaking anime (I'm sure you all catch my drift), I'm tired of it. I definitely don't enjoy seeing other women's butts and boobs in my face all the time. It may seem like I'm overreacting, but seriously, why is it almost always women who are being put out there like this and constantly being objectified (also, why are there so many women who are willing to be objectified? I don't quite understand that...)? I mean,  it's so easy to find provocative pictures of women even when you aren't looking for it, but you seldom ever see provocative pictures of men. Heck, even when I try to look for yaoi/shounen-ai wallpapers (mmhmm... I've been a fan of yaoi and shounen ai for awhile), there isn't much selection at all, and of course, I always spot a bunch of pictures of naked/half naked anime girls in there.  -_-

I'm not saying that there should be penises and naked men about everywhere or anything like that, but it sucks and it's kind of unfair that this is the way things are; so one-sided and over the top. Of course, that's life for you, right? Even so, I just wish that things were different, or at the very least toned down a bit. Honestly, I don't believe it's healthy at all for this type of thing to be so common and so open in the public eye. It really can have a negative effect on both men and women. Think about it, there's lots of women out there who try to compare themselves to these over-sexualized ladies and feel bad when they realize they may never be like them. As for men, I feel that this is partly the reason why some men don't respect women or view them as fellow human beings. It doesn't just stop there, either. This can even have a negative impact on children as well. Children are very impressionable, as most people know, and often will imitate the things they see others do around them or what they see on tv. Now, would any of you want your daughter to try to "be sexy" and emulate these women? Would you want your sons to turn out like the men who think women are objects and treat them as such? I don't think so.

What I'm trying to say is, we need to bring some decency and modesty back into our world. I don't know if writing this will ever change anything or reach anyone, in fact, I doubt it will. Still just felt the need to get this off my chest. Now, I have nothing further to say on this matter. I've said my piece, and that's all there is to it. Good night all!

It's Getting Easier....

Being alone, that is. It's been almost a week since my husband left for Florida, and I've been getting used to being here with no one else around. In a way, I kind of enjoy doing everything at my own pace and only worrying about my own mess to clean up and feeding myself. It's like a little vacation for me! xD Not to say that I don't miss him anymore, because I do, but being able to have time for the things I want to do is great! I really love being able to go out without having to worry about getting back early to start cooking dinner and to be able to greet my husband home from work.

I guess choosing to stay at home turned out to be good for me, in a way. I feel like I've gained some independence. I had never been left alone before, at least not for too long. I've always had someone around that I could depend on if I ever needed something or if I was scared... I found out that that was part of the reason why I was worried about my husband going to Florida without me. I realize now that I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself and don't need to rely on others so much. I needed to find that out, otherwise, I would probably be depending on others my entire life. What kind of life would that be?

Haha, well, look at me, 20 going on 21 and I'm still maturing! I feel like there's still a long way to go for me. I still feel like I have so much to learn about becoming an independent adult and that I'm still like a kid. Well, I'll just take things one step at a time. I guess people weren't kidding when they getting older is rough. o.o

Can't Sleep...

It's my second night by myself since my husband had gone to Florida. I really dislike being here alone when night comes around... At least during the days, I can go out and distract myself, but at night, I'm confined to the house (ladies shouldn't be out by themselves at night; it's not safe!) and I start to realize just how lonely I feel. The house just seems so empty with no one else around... I can't help but be a bit sad when I think about that.

Well, at least I am able to talk to my husband daily, so that makes things a bit better. So far we talk once in the morning, then in the afternoon, and then right before he goes to bed. Still, it's not quite the same as him being here. 

I know, I know... I'm whining too much. :P I guess when it comes to the people I love and care about most, I can get really clingy. I can't help it! Dx I have to say though, even though he's not right next to me, I'm happy that he's having so much fun with his family and friends. ^_^ He doesn't get to see them very often, being in the army and currently residing on the opposite side of the country from them. They only get to see him about twice a year! I only have to be without him for 10 more days. Compared to how long they all have to wait just to see him, that's really nothing. It makes me feel a little bad when I think about that... Still, I'm really looking forward to him coming back! xD I guess the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder" is really true! Since he's not around, it just makes me want him even more! Interesting how that works... :P 

Anyways, I should really try to get some sleep. It would be bad if me staying up late persists and I look like a total wreck as soon as he walks through the door. Lols! Good night, everyone! Have pleasant dreams. :)