Happy Anniversary~!

Today marks the day of mine and my husband's one year anniversary! ^.^ I can't believe it's been exactly a year now since we've gotten married. :3 It seems to have went by so fast! Oddly enough, he and I don't really want to do anything today to celebrate. We both actually almost forgot that our anniversary was today. If it weren't for people bombarding us with "Happy Anniversary!" messages, we probably would have never thought of it. It's not that we don't want to celebrate it, it's just that it's kind of an inconvenient time for us at the moment. Everything has just been so busy for us, especially with the seemingly never ending stream of people that keep coming to visit us (yes, we're still getting visitors left and right, almost to the point where it seems like we don't get much time to ourselves to just sit back and relax). Also, it kind of doesn't help now that we've sold our car, so we can't just go off somewhere at our own convenience anymore. :P

It doesn't really bother me though, staying at home and resting. It may not be the most exciting way to spend our anniversary, but it's alright. It kind of makes me feel bad though when people get all shocked over us not doing anything and fuss over it. Someone even said that the honeymoon phase must be over for us, which doesn't help make me feel better at all. It actually makes me more paranoid than anything else... I dread the idea of the spark of our romance fizzling out. Sounds so.... miserable, boring, and blah. I know people say it's normal for that to happen over the years of being married, but really, I don't think I can accept or be satisfied with such mediocrity. Honestly, I do everything in my power to avoid that sort of thing, so hearing that really just irks me and puts such a bad taste in my mouth. It completely sours my mood. Ugh... Curse my semi-easily influenced mind...making me stress over what other people say. It would be wise for me to just follow the caterpillar's advice:

Easier said than done, but I should try harder to not let what other's say get to my head so much. Getting upset over things like this does more harm than good, anyways, especially since people will always say what they want without knowing what it is that they're even talking about. I need to just brush it off and move on! *nods* I won't let anyone else ruin the rest of my day, that's for certain!

A Nice Night Out :)

My husband and I had just come back from a party with his soldiers (their family members and spouses tagged along, too) It was at this really good Mexican restaurant called Lopez (our favorite place to go for Mexican food! Their burritos and fried ice cream are to die for!). We had a pretty big table to ourselves, and it was wonderful because everyone seemed to be in such high spirits and were talking and laughing while munching on tortilla chips and sipping our drinks. It seems every time I see them, they're always so happy and seem to be so friendly and warm! :3 They're all really great people, and amazingly, I don't ever feel uncomfortable around them. Even though I have never spent nearly as much time around them as my husband had, I have to say that I'm going to miss them once we leave.

Oh! Also, there was this one little boy there that was extremely adorable! He was so sweet and funny! He went up to me and said "Can I ask you something? You're pretty!". It was so cute and I couldn't help but smile and laugh a bit. xD Normally, I'm not so good with children and usually am shocked by how most kids today lack discipline, but I was truly amazed by how well-behaved, social, and nice this little boy was. It was nice having him there with us. His parents are such good people, and it definitely shows that they're great parents, too, judging by how their son is. I hope he doesn't change! Lols! ^.^

*Sighs happily* There's really nothing better than good food and good company. To me, those things are the  best part of life! No doubt about it! :) There's no way anyone can possibly feel bad when surrounded by close friends and eating and sharing a delicious meal with them. Now, to finish off the night, it's time to get a little R&R. Good night everyone, and have a lovely weekend!

What Do I Do....?

I've been stressing out for hours now all because of a dream I had a few nights before, and now here I am typing out a blog post at 2 am, unable to sleep. It seems to have been a prophetic dream... You know, one of those dreams that pretty much land up actually occurring in reality. Normally, I don't make such a big deal over these, as the ones I usually get tend to be trivial and don't have any positive or negative effects on my life, but this time, it's different. This time, my marriage could be at risk.

In my dream, my husband was playing WoW (which really isn't so out of the ordinary to begin with, since he plays often) and he was talking to someone on there. I could see the username, and in my dream, I had asked who that was, and he had told me that it was someone he had met the day before while playing. He said that he didn't plan on getting to know this person or asking them personal questions about themselves and that he just likes having friends in the games he plays. Sure enough, today (well, I guess technically it would be yesterday now...) I saw that same exact username on his screen while he was playing WoW, and when I asked him about it, he said the exact same thing that he said in the dream. Now of course, this alone isn't even that big of a deal, but I promise that it gets worse.

Fast forward a few days (or weeks, or even months maybe...?) in the dream, and all my husband wants to do is play WoW all the time and talk to this person. He lands up forming a bond with them, and then finding out that this person is a girl. He starts talking about how awesome he thinks she is, and flirting with her online all the time, and eventually he tells me that he thinks he has feelings for her. The very thought of this happening is devastating to me, and I have no idea what to do. On one hand, I can bring this up to him and try to prevent it (which I want to do), but on the other... I wonder if this is going to really land up happening, if I should just let it be. If this is what's going to happen, would it be wrong if I try to fight against it for my own happiness and possibly preventing my husband from being with someone who could make him even happier than I could ever dream of making him as a result? Would it be selfish of me to do anything but stand idly by and watch everything as it unfolds? Do I just leave? Or do I just try to stay calm and hope that the rest of my dream doesn't come true?

I'm nervous about what may happen if I bring this up to my husband... I want to trust him and I want to believe that our relationship is strong enough to overcome anything, but this is just too much of a coincidence so far. Then again, it could very well be just that... mere coincidences. Ugh... A few days ago, I wouldn't have even given that dream a second thought, and now it's driving me insane! I don't know what to do.... I feel so conflicted and I can't get it out of my head. *sigh* Maybe I should just gather up all of my courage and talk to him about this, and then see what he does... I'm crossing my fingers and hoping everything will turn out alright. Wish me luck!

Ball and Chain...?

I love being married, I really do. What I can't stand though is when people refer to me as my husband's ball and chain right in front of me. -_- I think that's extremely rude... Not only is it offensive to me, but it really offends my husband, too. He really hates it when people say things like that, because he feels that I'm anything but a ball and chain. I don't weigh him down or keep him from going out with friends or having fun, or try to control him in any way. Doing that would just send a marriage crashing and burning into a pit of unhappiness, and who wants that? I know I don't. :P 

Unfortunately, there are people who believe that it is inevitable for a woman to become mad and self-centered as soon as they get married. I can't tell you how many times my husband's friends had "warned" him and told him that he better think twice about getting married once we had gotten engaged. They told him that I may seem all sweet and amazing to him at the time being, but once we get married, I'd be different... They said he could kiss his freedom goodbye and that he would land up miserable and that eventually, I might land up either cheating on him or leaving him for someone else. They had said not to trust the things I say. Hearing that (yes, they said this while I was in earshot) really hurt. 

I know I probably shouldn't have let it get to me, because I know that I've been nothing but my true self ever since my husband and I had first met. I was never a crazy lady (well... okay, maybe a little bit. I'm a fun kind of crazy though... :P) who yells and throws fits over nothing and complains about everything, nor did I ever feel the need to ever boss anyone around. As for the cheating/finding someone else part, that just completely goes against my moral code.  xP The woman who they said I would become is not in the least bit like me, and I would never want to be her. Even now, they say to just give it more time, and it'll happen... I'm just glad my husband had never believed them and knows me well enough to be able to see that I'm not going to change.

Still, I wonder where people even get these ideas about marriage from? Thinking that way is really unfair to all of the wonderful women and loving wives out there. Even if they had encountered one woman who was like that, it doesn't mean that we all are going to be that way. It's a real shame that so many people have such a negative outlook on marriage and horrible expectations from wives and soon-to-be wives... I just wish that horrible stereotype would just go away... It gets really annoying hearing about it over and over again. :/

Dogs and "Dogs"

While I was walking to the store, I saw this really adorable golden retriever being walked with it's owner. ^.^ All of a sudden, he was running toward me, pulling the poor woman who was walking him along with him (I hope her arm isn't injured!). It was so cute though, because as soon as he made it to me, he was wagging his tail and very affectionate. x3 He was so sweet! The owner then said that she was sorry for him bothering me and that he had never had run up randomly to a stranger like that before, but of course I wasn't bothered at all! In fact, it kind of made my day. It's impossible to not be happy after an encounter like that, or at least that's how I feel. xD

However, as I continued on my way, I encountered "dogs". I'm not talking about the nice, furry kind this time around, I'm talking about the ones that are actually... men. I don't hate guys or anything like that, but I hate the guys that try to act cool with their friends while they're inside their car and stick their heads out of their windows and shout things at innocent women that are walking down the street going about their own business. Seriously, what do those guys gain from yelling out "HOT!!!" or "WOOO!" at us women? Do they earn cool points for doing stuff like that? Do they think that they're giving us a compliment or something...? If so, then I think they need to change their methods because I certainly don't appreciate it or find it to be flattering. In fact, I find it to be quite the opposite. Frankly, I don't care if anyone thinks I'm hot or not (aside from my husband. His opinion is the only one that matters to me). I didn't step outside of my house for their approval of my appearance. -_-; Though, I guess that sort of thing is harmless at the very least. No real damage is being done. It's just annoying at the very worst.

I think the reason why it bothers me so much though is because I honestly don't really like drawing attention to myself in public, good or bad. Most of the time, I like to think that I'm invisible. I know I'm not, but that's what I like to think. Whenever I happen to get attention, I immediately start getting really shy and embarrassed because I feel like my cover has been blown, and I feel the urge to run away and hide. v_v;  I've been like that since middle school due to constant bullying. I handle it a lot better than I used to, though. I'm actually able to look people in the eyes now and say "thank you" when people give me a compliment. I used to flat out deny them. :P

I have no idea how I went from talking about dogs, to guys, to being bullied in middle school. I'm sorry for jumping from topic to topic! ^^; I am a bit random like this, so it's kind of a normal thing for me. haha!